Dave、James Blake - Selfish (Explicit)

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[00:00.09]Selfish (Explicit) - Dave/James Blake
[00:01.17]Lyrics by：Dave/James Blake
[00:02.04]Composed by：Dave/James Blake
[00:02.97]Produced by：James Blake/Santan
[00:17.27]What if I'm selfish?
[00:19.28]What if I'm the reason behind it?
[00:22.21]What if I'm overprotective with family because of how mine is?
[00:24.84]What if I'm jealous?
[00:27.18]Maybe that's what's making me nervous
[00:29.64]What if my effort of pulling you close are pushing you further?
[00:32.58]What if I'm selfish?
[00:34.70]What if the reason they call me "The Greatest"
[00:37.40]Is also the reason that me and you livin' on different pages?
[00:40.30]What if I'm too much?
[00:42.28]What if I settled and I didn't fight?
[00:44.17]What if my fear of doing it wrong's the reason
[00:46.47]I haven't been doing it right?
[00:48.10]What if I'm selfish?
[00:50.06]What if the kids just wanna be kids
[00:52.01]And don't wanna live in and out of the news and chill
[00:54.26]And don't even wanna be rich?
[00:55.73]And what if I'm so self-centred that
[00:57.65]I don't even realise what I could miss?
[00:59.58]And what if I'm what if I'm fallin' in the abyss?
[01:03.63]Maybe it's
[01:05.54]What if I'm
[01:06.58]Yeah
[01:07.42]Maybe it's dark maybe it's day maybe it's too many nights in L.A.
[01:11.25]Look at the house in Surrey and still
[01:13.16]All of the feelings we hid in the Hills
[01:15.05]Maybe it's you maybe it's me maybe the media or the provoking
[01:18.89]Gave you my heart I laid it bare funny you went and you poked it
[01:22.88]What if it's better with me out the way?
[01:24.82]What if it's better with me out the
[01:26.61]Like what if it's better with me out the way?
[01:28.67]What if I'm poison?
[01:29.64]What if I'm cancer?
[01:30.63]What if I'm dangerous and I'm wild?
[01:32.51]Look in my eyes you're seein' a child
[01:34.45]What if he's broken?
[01:35.41]What if he's scared?
[01:36.47]What if he's ostracised and vilified?
[01:38.56]See peace is just an illusion
[01:40.29]Ain't got a home I live in confusion
[01:42.13]What if I'm selfish?
[01:44.93]Forever forever forever
[01:48.04]I manage the symptoms forever
[01:52.22]You can love how you want
[01:55.81]I know to give is no loss
[02:00.05]Can you settle for second?
[02:03.34]Let go of your idea of heaven?
[02:07.87]I know it's a lot
[02:10.56]But it might be all that I've got
[02:15.31]I wanna throw myself in
[02:19.62]Snap off the mask
[02:23.20]I want a clown that sings
[02:26.94]And a love that lasts
[02:31.18]I wanna escape the wedding
[02:34.70]Go with you to the carriage
[02:38.45]I wanna give you my life
[02:42.07]Or at least something to cherish
[02:46.76]But what if I'm selfish?
[02:48.95]I done a lot of things to regret
[02:50.78]Like announcin' our split on a text
[02:52.26]Don't know why but I still buy gifts for my ex
[02:54.52]Watchin' her stories to see if she checks
[02:56.19]I'm a mess I don't know if my head's in the game
[02:58.42]She told me don't mention her name I'm suggestin' the same
[03:01.00]I'ma get through the pain wanna see the sunshine
[03:02.88]Gotta get through the rain
[03:04.11]Bag full of trauma I left on the train
[03:05.94]I'm ashamed for the days that I said that I changed
[03:07.72]I'm a cheat sat in a therapist chair
[03:09.59]Cryin' like a baby in the middle of a Harley Street
[03:12.04]Like I'm fightin' this sickness that I can't beat I'm disloyal
[03:15.02]And then I go mad reflection tellin' me I'm just my dad
[03:17.88]And this white woman tellin' me it ain't so bad
[03:19.99]Middle of my sentence she cut me off like
[03:21.91]"Sorry David we don't have any more time
[03:23.58]"Your appointment till 4 and it's 3:55"
[03:25.69]Bruh I feel like she wouldn't even care if I died
[03:27.63]Man tried all this therapy **** man tried all this therapy ****
[03:30.72]Bruh I know wouldn't even say I'm depressed
[03:32.57]But I'm low in the Grosvenor Casino in Edgware Road
[03:34.87]I've got too many sins to atone and a voice in my head
[03:37.72]Like at this point like
[03:39.09]At this point where you should've been rich like
[03:41.00]At this point where you should've had kids like
[03:42.89]At this point should've built you a life like
[03:44.85]Look around you don't you feel you're behind? Like
[03:46.81]Look around you don't you feel you're behind? Like
[03:48.62]Look around you don't you feel like like
[03:51.13]What if I never find love?
[03:52.77]Don't know if it's scarier
[03:53.97]The thought of us two together or bein' alone
[03:56.66]I'm so used to bein' alone
[03:58.47]What if I'm somebody nobody wants?
[04:00.27]What if I'm damaged or what if waited too long
[04:02.31]And have mould on me?
[04:03.14]What if I'm cold on me?
[04:04.02]What if I cut off the hand that I hold on me?
[04:06.11]What if I'm rapidly spiralin' and tired and jaded?
[04:08.81]Or what if I'm faded?
[04:09.90]Or what if anxiety's growin' inside me
[04:11.67]That I might have left all my best years behind me?
[04:13.61]Or what if I'm scared as I touch twenty-seven
[04:15.54]That you don't appear in my idea of heaven?
[04:17.44]Or what if I'm what if I'm
[04:20.94]What if I'm selfish?